ladestiny92

To my dearest,
Oi baka!,

It’s been awhile, huh? If you’re still mad at me for walking away from your life, I presume you’d throw this letter away before reading it. But if there’s still some love left for me in your heart, then I know you will read what I have to say.

The day I walked away without saying anything, I decided not to turn back. I wish I could keep you in the dark forever. However, if you receive this letter, that means I’m no longer here. I know I am being selfish after the way I left but God help me. Jin, I’m not that strong. You need to know the truth.

One week before I left, I found out I was two months pregnant. I left, I ran away, using you as an excuse. You were just starting to rise in the show business world, and I used that to convince myself I should leave. The truth was, I was scared. I was scared and I didn’t know... I was scared that you won’t accept this baby. I was scared you would leave me.

I know it’s impossible for a man to be pregnant, but it happened. I took away your choices when I left. Now that I’m dead, I’m giving you the choices that you should have. Do...Do you want to keep our child and keep a part of me with you forever. Or would you like to give him up for adoption?

Jin, under my orders, you have one week to make a decision before my sister looks for parents who would like to adopt him. Just so you know, Jin, whatever your decision is, I will always love you. Now and forever.

Forever yours,

Ueda Tatsuya


Jin dropped the letter as one hand was clenched in a fist and tears rolling down his cheeks. ‘Tat-chan,’ he cried, realizing his lover was dead, and he has a son.